I haven’t written here about 💙 lately, but he and I are still talking.
He says he loves me, wants to spend the rest of his life with me, and is trying to finish his business overseas as quickly as possible so he can come see me.
Do I trust this?
No, of course I don’t.
After everything I went through with E, I’m holding my own if I can trust the mailman to get the right mail in the correct box. (Which is a debatable question, lately, but I digress)
There are only two men in ny life that I trust, anymore. One is my father; the other, my nephew.
The rest….well, their words are taken with a humongous dose of salt and skepticism.
Because they don’t follow through on their word. Or they send out such weird signals, I have no clue what they want, anymore, so I don’t even bothering trying to interpret, but, rather just continue with my skepticism & stay in my own lane.
As for those who do evince some kind of obvious interest, I assume it’s of the “use ’em and lose ’em” kind.
Men always leave. So why bother, anymore?
As far as 💙 is concerned?
I’ll believe that when I see it.
Whatever, my trust just doesn’t rise for words, anymore.
You’ve got to back it up with actions.
As I tell my nephew all the time “I ain’t got time for this, I’ve got shit to do”.
I’m not going to wait around for someone to get his shit together & ponder on whether he wants to actually mean the words he spouts so easily.
If you love someone, you say it – AND you back it up by how you act.
You have feelings for me? Prove it, or I’ll be on my way.