I just wanted to drop you a line, to check in, and to let you know…
It’s all going to be Ok.
I know that things haven’t been great for you recently. I know that you’ve been struggling to find your balance, your peace, with everything that’s been going on, and that you’ve been beating yourself up over that.
Stop right now.
You don’t deserve the pain you’ve been putting yourself through- you truly don’t, and I’d appreciate it if you’d cease and desist.
Your friends would appreciate if you’d cease & desist. They truly do care about you, you know this, and they’ve told you so. Listen to them. They’re smart.
E putting you off for 3 years is not your fault. You’ve been holding onto hope for so long, and I know it hurts when you have it dragged out this long, but seriously? He needs to put up or shut up, and you need to stop feeling guilty about thinking about moving on without him.
Someday, you will find someone who will treat you with respect. Someone who will love you, and will not only tell you so, but will prove it.
B ignoring you is not your fault. You tried to talk to him, and left the door open for conversation, so it’s his decision and choice.
Matter of fact, you’re not responsible for anyone else’s feelings and/or reactions.
Only your own.
K’s problems with G are not your fault, either. Yes, it’s like reliving your past a bit, but there’s nothing you can do about it, nor should you. You can provide compassion, a comfortable shoulder to cry on when necessary, and love to boost her back up. That’s all that’s required, as it’s her life, so she’s the one who has to decide what to do.
And you need to stop letting others get you so worked up, and take more moments to breathe before you react. You know that if you just sleep on it, or give it at least a little more time, you’ll calm down, and be able to see things a little clearer.
And if it’s still worth getting worked up over, you have the extra rest to use.
And you do know how to kick some ass, when necessary. You’ve been fighting for others for years, and have gotten a pretty good reputation as a bouncer when needed.
Just learn how to do it for yourself, too, would you? Please? For both of us?